Tag: fitness

First Ramblings.

Dear Readers,

Today was a good day.

I woke up at 6:30 this morning, which still upsets me knowing that I no longer can just sleep in. I blame working first shift at work. I went to the gym – which isn’t too surprising for a lot of people in the world – a lot do that. Me? I’m lazy, I don’t do that. This morning, I went. This will be the third Wednesday that I attended the gym, third week – I’ll be going back Friday – it’ll be leg day. *gross

I go to water aerobics. && of course, for my age, it seems strange. It’s a great exercise program for older women && sometimes men, not as many, but there are men. I like to exercise with older people – they don’t judge you for dumb reasons. It’s half the reason overweight people tend to stay away from the gym. Not because they truly don’t want to go, but because when they go the jokes and ridicule doesn’t end – it’s exhausting. So, they just don’t go. They attempt to exercise at home, you can use anything, remember? Water bottles, cans of vegetables, milk jugs, a couch. I don’t know if you have ever tried to exercise at home using a can of carrots, but it’s a little… what’s a nice word?

Sometimes, overweight people will attempt to go for a walk. Back road, parks, stores, malls. But then you face children. But you think, it’s just children. You want to know who is harder on people than gym nuts? Mhmm… children. I used to walk around town before I moved here. I guess we won’t say it was children, it was teenagers, because teenagers are cruel. They are cruel to each other, adults, animals. Not all teenagers, of course, I know a few that are fantastic. But maybe I’m projecting.

We spent 45 minutes in the water – upper body today. I really enjoyed it. But then again, if I could, I would turn into a mermaid and just live in the water – especially in the summer months. But alas, I’m human, && can’t just magically turn into a mermaid – this isn’t Disney Channel. So, I have to choose water aerobics. After which, since I drove myself, I spent 35 minutes on a bike elliptical – rode “four miles”. I say, “four miles”, because I honestly don’t know if that was four miles. But the machine said so.

It’s now a little before ten o’clock and I am just tired. After I got home, I wanted to play Fallout 4 on the Xbox, that was my plan. Have a snack, play a game. I don’t remember when, or for how long, but I’m pretty sure I was asleep in my chair. I ended up going to Wal-Mart just to get some oomph back into me. It didn’t work. I’m still just tired. The last few times of water aerobics I didn’t feel tired. But you know how you feel after being out in the sun all day in the pool then you come inside for that cold white bread bologna sammich with Doritos? THAT FEELING. I have had it all day. But… the pool at the gym… is inside && warm.

Maybe it was the elliptical bike?

I planned to just lay down and go to sleep. But I promised myself && a little to you guys, that I would write. More. Get back to that. So, I figured I would write before I go to sleep. I’m already halfway to the sleep cycle – I’m sitting in bed as I type this. Husband is beside me watching his phone ‘Return to Silent Hill’, apparently. I always tell him he can use the television and not watch his phone, but nope – phone it is. Me? I’m listening to the television, ‘Supermarket Sweep’. Did you ever watch ‘Supermarket Sweep’? I remember watching it when I was younger. I found it on my Roku television and I’m pretty sure I have watched the reruns with reruns surrounded by reruns.

They brought it back out a couple years ago. I read about David Ruprecht one night while watching this – Google is great! I read that he auditioned for the reboot that Leslie Jones got. I enjoyed Leslie Jones’ version – she’s great. It lasted one season; it doesn’t seem that they have any intentions of making it anymore. So, I started to wonder – if they had given it to David Ruprecht, would it still be running? David’s run was long and great!

I also read, to which I didn’t know, that David Ruprecht was in ‘True Blood’. I had to Google more into that, because what? To me he is just the host of a great game show. I didn’t realize that he was also an actor-actor. He was, by the way, in ‘True Blood’. He played a Reverend.

I suppose it’s bedtime. If only I had a canopy bed. >insert weird facial features< I never had a canopy bed. I had a day bed – but I’m about twenty percent sure the Husband would not appreciate a day bed.

It would be hilarious, tho.

Until next time… <3

Journey Update #1

I can’t sleep.

Which wouldn’t really surprise anyone that knows me. Sometimes I can lay down && just fall asleep, other times, not so much. Tonight is “other nights”.

Wandering around the house I remembered I haven’t updated y’all on my journey so far. So, let’s do that.

Today is April 17, 2025 – it has been five months and four days since having the surgery – 155 days. I have lost 81 pounds. The first three months I lost 60 pounds – knowing I have only lost 20 pounds in two months makes me sad. I don’t know if this is normal.

I’m on a DS Support Group on Facebook – my surgeons office told me to join one. Everyone will post that in six months they pulled off 120 or more pounds. It makes me wonder if I’m doing something incorrectly.

But let’s talk about the positive:
1. I’m off all diabetes medications. My A1C went from 8.7 to 5.3 by month three.
2. When I had the surgery, I was on seven different blood pressure meds. Today, I’m on one.
3. I can walk without getting winded.
4. I fit in my car. (Technically, I fit in my car before, but there was no gap between me && the steering wheel.) I was driving today && for a moment though I feel small in my car.
5. I have been able to buy clothes from Wal-Mart. Last time I remember doing that I was about 19. After that, my weight went up causing me to only buy from Woman Within (plus size clothing store online for anyone wondering). After I started the job, I have now, I gained more weight. What else are you supposed to do when having a sit-down job? The answer to that – eat. After I started dating boyfriend I gained more weight. I don’t think I meant to, but it happened. So, the idea of buying clothes in a store just left. I have bought shorts && shirts from Wal-Mart && that made me happy.
6. People are always telling me I can see the difference. So, there must be a difference, right?
7. I haven’t weighed under 250 pounds in… goodness, I can’t remember when I weighed it. Maybe when Boyfriend && I first started dating back in 2014? Possibly.

I don’t see the difference. All I see is the fat around my waist. (No, I’m not making it up, there is still fat there.) I can feel the thinning of my hair && see it when I brush my hair. I caught a glimpse of my reflection today… my face looks the same. But I wonder… will my face change? I know when people lose weight their face slims, but even when I was younger && weighed 205 pounds, my face was fat. Possibly kid fat face? But it was fat. Maybe I’ll just be one of those chunky faced people.

The DS Support group has stated many times that once you hit six months, that’s your biggest weight loss. After that, you’ll lose slower and not very much more. I really wanted to be 120 pounds down at six months. Where did I get these numbers? Out of a hat, possibly, but I’m not going to hit it. One of the ladies in the group said that I’m probably going to hit 150 pounds – when? && do I want to weigh 150 pounds? According to my height, on the BMI chart, I’ll still be considered overweight. Everything says I need to weigh 110 to 125 pounds.

Even when I was a kid, I never wanted to weigh 110 to 125 pounds. I still don’t.

I think I have mentioned my goal before. My first goal was to reach when my driver’s license said – because you know, I have never told the truth. It was 276 pounds. Then I just wanted to get under 250 pounds. I have technically done that, but I keep bouncing between 248 && 253 pounds. One day I’ll be on the lower side, then two days later I’ll be over 250.

I would also like to mention in that DS Support group they said when they do the surgery, they remove the part of your system that tells you that you’re hungry. That you’ll never “feel hungry”, but you need to eat anyways. Okay… hear me out… I think he left mine in. Because I do feel hunger. My stomach will growl. && I know that because right now my stomach is growling, but it’s 11:09 PM && I don’t think I should be eating again. I wake up every morning… EVERY. MORNING. I wake up hungry. Stomach growling. Tumble rumbles. I first thought it was gas, because that comes with it. But I realized a few days in… that’s hungry.

I’m 37 years old. && until I had this surgery, I didn’t know what “feeling hungry” felt like. I never gave my system enough time to feel hungry. My inability to stay away from food, or my need to eat when I felt weird… kept me from feeling it.

Carbs don’t bother me. Pasta. Rice. Breaded foods. (Don’t think I’m eating that day in && day out, I don’t. I haven’t had pasta since November – I had rice the other night at a Mexican restaurant.) Know what bothers me? SUGAR.

I made a cake the other night for my work peeps. I tasted the icing to make sure it was decent tasting. Oh. My. Goodness. My stomach hurt all night. Mind you, before you get all judge mental, even before the surgery, I rarely ate sugar. Stop giving me that look. You know the look. The look people give fat people when they say I don’t eat/drink sugar. because it’s automatically a lie, right? How else would I have gotten fat?

One word. Ramen.

When I learned to cook ramen noodles in the microwave, it was downhill from there.

Oh, I lied up there. I have eaten pasta since November. That’s how I know it doesn’t bother me. I will make ramen broth – most of the time I’ll take the packets out && toss the noodles (boyfriend don’t eat them so I have no need to keep them), but every now && again, I’ll crumble the noodles and add about a handful of them. It’s rare, though.

I just want to keep it real. No lies. Just honesty.

Do I think that’s what my issue is when it comes to losing slow? I don’t know. Is it something medical? I don’t know. I know at my third month appointment the dietician mentioned weight loss shots. Here’s the thing – I had this surgery so I wouldn’t be on shots for the rest of my life. I still don’t want to me. My issue right now?

I don’t want to be fat when I get married in July.

But honestly, I feel like I will be. && that makes me sad.

Journey Restarted: Part 2

What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months?

I don’t want to look at it like a challenge. But at the same time, I know there will be challenges included into it. My biggest challenge in the next six months will be the weight loss surgery. I know I will be great && do just fine, but there will be challenges.

Right now, I am just zooming through the objectives I have to accomplish before I can even have surgery. I went to the first of three dietician appointments this month. She basically said the same thing the last one did – although, I was a little surprised to see that it wasn’t the same dietician as it was last year. && good news! She didn’t yell at me. She wants me to walk daily, for thirty minutes, to get in the habit because I’ll need to do so after surgery. One of the first things that you lose is muscle mass, so I have to be on top of that. What else did we talk about?

Last week I had the appointment with the, pardon me for what I call it, crazy doctor. This was the same one I spoke to in 2022 when I started the first journey. She asked the same questions and was excited about the same things when I talked about them. Mostly, the fact that I love to cook – she said that is one step in the right direction. She does have a lot of faith in me though. She said she can see me doing really well at this journey && has no worries about approving me to do it.

Next month will be my second of third dietician visits, && then I have a few more things I have to do. But I’m just cruising right along so far.