Tag: wedding

Headaches.

What gives you a headache just thinking about it?

Right now, everything is giving me a headache. But then again, I haven’t really felt well today, so that’s probably half of it.

The wedding is giving me a headache. Not in a bad way. I just accepted a long time ago that I wouldn’t need to really think about a wedding because who would want to marry me? As a kid that was a hard thing to accept but when you hit about 25, && no one really shows an interest, and a lot of your family basically has accepted they have to take care of you for the rest of time because you’ll be alone – you learn to accept it.

But here it is. 36 years OLD, && I’m looking at getting married. && I’m not one of those girls that has thought about it all their life. You know, once you accept you’ll never get married you stop thinking about it. I feel like I’m running blind. I know I have people in my life that would be willing to assist me in planning it, but at the same time, I’m… some would say I’m weird. Some of the things I want I’m not sure they’d understand until they actually see it happen. Then it will makes sense. But getting to that point.

I have made a few decisions but the hardest one will always be where && how much I’m willing to spend. That && if I even want a full blown wedding. I’ve mentioned it before – maybe elope && then have a party.

I would say I still have so much time to figure it out, but I don’t. If I’m having an actual wedding, && will have to pay for a space to have it at, I need to figure it out very soon – I’ll need to save the money for it.

Obsessed.

I am currently obsessed with…

…two things, actually.

  1. Finding an affordable place to have my wedding next year.
  2. The Floor! && when I say the floor, I’m not talking about my house floors – there is a gameshow hosted by Rob Lowe that I’m loving.

I have been googling a lot lately trying to find something I like that I can afford. I tell Boyfriend all the time that I’m a little on the bougie side && looking at these places I’m starting to see just how bougie I really am. I have found a couple I really like but I can’t afford to just blow nearly $6,000 on a venue for one night. Especially when I can use that money to do better things – you know, like fix my house. (We are working on that slowly.)

I have thought about saying to heck with it && eloping. Find me a judge, courthouse, take a couple people && just be done with it. But at the same time, I know there are people who actually want to be there. So, I think, how mad will people be if I don’t invite everyone who has shown interest in it – will they get over it? Then I wonder also, how much do I really care? Some of the people who has shown interest in going I barely see. Or never see. I think they are after free booze, which I will not be having. I don’t drink, so why have it? 

I’ve also been giving thought to having a very small wedding – get like a small chapel for $100 – then get a venue just to party! Invite the masses to the party to celebrate us getting married rather than being at the wedding itself. Because then I could just do a judge marriage and then have everyone go to the party afterwards.

Weddings are expensive. Where if I can just find a small chapel somewhere for a couple hundred dollars, I could spend a little bit on a venue (I found one for $500) – serve some finger foods, or pizza, or something. Soda’s && teas.

I have a lot to think about. Boyfriend mentioned just going to Vegas, but honestly, googling that – it’s not really that much cheaper to go there. Plus, you have to add in the money to drive there.

THE FLOOR! I’m telling you what! I had seen a preview of it on Facebook && thought I would give it a shot, why not? Right? I love gameshows. I wasn’t sure, just by previews, if I’d like it. So I waited for a day the Boyfriend && I were both off and I turned it on (I watch it using Hulu). && boy, let me tell you! I was hooked from episode one. The only thing I’m not liking is the fact I have to wait weeks to watch it. I’m up to date with it and now I have to wait until next Wednesday to watch the fourth episode.